Louie Aragon

I will say that today was pleasant compared to most days I have, normally nothing good comes my way and nothing productive either. Today was different though, well yesterday included, things changed. I finally got back into working on websites and web development. I spent my first day back to work online going insane trying to set up and develop my first project. From what I recall I think I was sitting in from of my computer for a good 8-9 full hours trying to work on the website layout, and the programming and coding behind the wordpress interface. Tinkering with the website here and there for hours to try and make it picture perfect, although I still believe it has some flaws, I know I put a ton of effort into the construction of it and it paid off big time.

I have yet to advertise and market the website besides showing a few friends at NamePros.com , and showing it off on my Facebook page. I wanted to see the responses I would get about the websites genuine feel towards other people and not just myself. It passed the test. – I also was able to get in touch with a few people who are going to be writers for the website, 2 are old friends from way back in the day, and another I just haven’t seen this dude in ages! So I think it will be fun working alongside with them writing for the website and such.

New Project: http://www.Game-Hub.com

That is just the first project, I started working on two others but because I know very little about the niche they fall into I am trying to stray away and move only onto things I know about and like. TalkClothing.com is my next venture into web development, but I don’t think I will start it until Game-Hub grows and starts getting bigger. I want to work on one project at a time rather than multiple projects and nothing gets done properly.

is the only thing I hear right now.

To be honest, I am trying my best in spanish right now but this language is killing me, there is so much to learn in so little time. Next week we already have our mid-term on the 3 chapters/lessons we learned since the beginning of the summer session. I am trying my best to keep up with the class but I already feel so behind and like I have no idea what is going on. I have a hard time paying attention in class, my mind leaves my body and that’s that lol. I think I am going to retake the class when fall starts because I want to pass with a better grade, I already have a feeling that I am not going to do great this summer so why not just re-take it and know most of what there is to learn, just understand it and remember it better.

Max made me laugh last night, she was talking about how all us are one big happy family again because I have been around when my old friend has been, but I told her, it ain’t like that because I am not just gonna leave because he shows up, and I am not going to be rude and ignore him, BUT outside from when I go over there I really have no reason to hit him up. Mainly because I don’t want too, he can fly a kite.

I have an idea for a job I am going to start up, I have to get working on the logo design and the concept/prices for the services I shall be providing. Might take a few weeks until the idea is fully functional and making me some profit but it is better than no job, and this way I am my own boss

In my eyes I feel as if I am nothing. I am going no where in life as the world would say. I have no job. I am having a hard time in school. I have less friends now that I know what a real friend is. I have no love. I have no real family anymore. What good am I?

I wake up every morning hoping and praying that things will get better, nothing changes though. There is no such thing as good things to come, or people helping you out. People can only judge you and make you fail, and in this world this is what most people do. Through the actions within their everyday lives, and the way they speak about life and yourself. People do not want you to be happy, they only want themselves to be happy, so when it comes to you, they don’t give a &%$@ unless you being happy makes them happy. Through my life I have always tended to avoid help because I wanted to do it alone, I wanted to be independent and free from the connections of fake people. So far it seems that you cannot live without being tied to fakes and people who really don’t care about you, because they are the only ones that can really help you. I never wanted to borrow money, so I never did. I worked my ass off to save up money for so long, and once my parents were having problems I got into it with my mom. She kept taking the car away because she didn’t like whatever I had to say to her. Everything I said was always wrong, no matter whether I was right, in her eyes I was still the child who knew nothing. So I rebelled and went and found a car on autotrader, bought it the next day with the help of my father. Used 2006 Chrysler Sebring Touring for $3,200. There were some things I had to fix, so in total I spent around $4,500 to $4,800. Again my father was the one to help me out with this entire thing.

So I spent all my cash basically on my car, and then eventually I decided to move out with my dad. I enjoyed it but in a way it got me into a mess of problems, I began to party and stay out late multiple times during the week, and few nights I wouldn’t even come home until the next day. Mom was helping me out with gas money and with school, but I was trying to be on top of my bills and pay off most of my credit card, and took care of my phone bill each month even though it was a hefty price because I left my moms plan to begin my own.

Started living with my mom again for sometime after the apartment my father and I were staying at, the lease was up and it was to expensive to renew it. Let me remind you that I was hardly getting hours over at Stater Bros so most of my checks went towards my bills and my credit cards, but I also tried to help out with buying groceries and etc which soon was a burden I couldn’t handle. Living with my mom I was able to drive one of her cars because I hadn’t been able to pay for the tags on my own. So I was there for a little while, and after some time I started to not want to work because I wanted to go back to school. She thought it was a great idea and said that she would support me if I did that. Although I never thought about how I would be at her mercy to live my own life because she holds the key to my living. If she doesn’t help me with my credit card, what else can I do?

I have been trying to find a job ever since I left Stater Bros. I started working at a dry cleaners for a few weeks, but the hours were terrible because it was once or twice a week, and I was trying to accomplish school over work. The reason I went to that job was because it was what my mother wanted for me, I know a job is a job, but this was bull@%$#. I couldn’t stand doing a job that consists of you doing NOTHING but tagging clothes and putting on a fake smile for customers. I will pass. So I continued with my adventure through school. Now she tells me that I should have stayed at Stater Bros and that she never told me to quit my job. I know she is full of it, but I can’t say anything because whether I am right or wrong it doesn’t matter.

I had to sell most of my domain names online to help pay my credit card bill, let’s just say it hasn’t gone down much because the price of living life hasn’t lowered. Main thing I can do is eat less and go places less, so that is what I have been trying to do. School and back, no where else unless it is close by. I eat at home if I am awake in time for my grandparents 1PM dinner, but normally I miss that and end up with a hot pocket or cup of noodles to hold me over until the next day. But even on the weeks I do wake up regularly before 1PM, that is the only meal we eat together as a family. No Breakfast, No Regular time dinner. I manage for cereal in the mornings for breakfast, when I feel like it. Not usually in the mood to eat much anymore. Late night I just go ahead with the frozen foods lol. I love cooking but, I no longer live in a place where I can cook or make a mess whenever I want too, even if I was to clean it up. Plus groceries to eat healthy are really expensive.

I am going to try working with the domains I now have to develop a website that can bring me in enough cash per month to at least pay off my phone bill each month and the minimum to my credit card. Not sure which idea will work but I have a few, I do not entirely want to do this but because I have no other options I don’t see why not. I have tried my best to get hired, and I will continue striving for the best and to get a job, but it is not easy, life is not easy.

and.. Love Sucks.